| Brian Good's attempted Suicide In 2003, during a four week period, I lost my job, van and apartment, I spent four days in a county jail for not being able to pay child support. Tanya, my wife told me she filed for divorce. In fact, I was in rehab for three months and homeless for eight months before I got an apartment in September 2004. I was deeply depressed. I saw no way out, there was nobody I could turn to for help and I did not know how to reach out to someone. Life no longer seemed worth living when I tried to kill myself. On October 23, 2003 I took enough pills to kill an elephant only to survive by a miracle that was God's intervention. Was I brain dead before or after I took those pills? I was predestined to attempt suicide so I would care about suicide. God knew I would write the book; "Never Surrender Your Soul". Tanya, said that an EMT told her that I had thirty minutes to live without medical intervention when they found me in a coma. Tanya said that she stopped by my apartment at 8:00 PM, then at approx. 8:45 PM and then at 9:30 PM before she called 911 at 9:30 PM on October 23, 2003. The EMT's and Fire Department was less than a mile away. Tanya who saved my life, I will heed to her call or need for the rest of my life. on. I am glad we are friends. You never know who your friends are. It could be your wife and you better make her your best friend because she knows you like a book and you are well read by her. Praise be to God that this women saved my life. I am very blessed to be alive. I awoke from the coma two days later. I never should have lived as a result of taking all those pills I had foot drop and nerve damage in both feet. My right foot was twisted from the drugs I had taken in my suicide. I hobbled out of bed realizing that my suicide was a mistake because I was actually glad to be still alive. I should not have ignored my depression by not seeking treatment which was my responsibility. I still had no means of income or family financial support. I spent three months in rehab and the next eight months at a homeless shelter. That is when I realized that I had not appreciated how much I had before I tried to kill myself. If all the Firefighters, EMT's, Doctors and Nurses had not executed their training precisely I may not have made it. I could have died again after they found me. They all cared about my life. My overdose of drugs should have killed me and wiped my brain clean like reformatting a hard drive on your computer. But my life and brain was spared. I have no doubt there is a God and that God loves and cares about all of us. |
